When I get bored I like to surf blogs. I go to blogs on my sisters' and friends' blogs and look at blogs of people I know and people I don't know. I can't even begin to describe all the posts I've read this week that show all these projects that women around my age are working on. I see all these beautiful scrap book pages, redecorated rooms, photography, sewing, you name it. And I have to admit, I don't feel talented or crafty at all compared to them. I'm sure this will remind my sisters of many years ago when I said no one would ever marry me because I wasn't crafty. Well, honestly, I'm not. I try to be, but I just can't live up to the 'creative' standards I have for myself. I'm on the Enrichment committee for my ward and I came up with the idea of having a scrap booking activity once a month . We've had two nights so far and both nights I've just sat staring at my scrap book with all my papers, stickers, pictures, ribbons, etc., sitting in front of me and not knowing where to start and wanting to make scrap book pages like my sisters do. I have a new apartment that is in desperate need of pictures, pillows, decorations, and little touches that will turn it into the home I envision, but I have no idea where to start or how to go about figuring out what will look good. I haven't knitted anything in months because I don't have a project and I've realized I won't finish something unless I'm making it for someone else or I have some reason to knit. I know that this doesn't mean I'm not worth anything or that I don't have other talents or creativity in other areas. I just so desperately want to make beautiful things and be able to create things that others can enjoy, and I feel overwhelmed by talents that my sisters and friends have. This isn't a 'pity me' post, just a realization that maybe I need to focus on the talents I do have rather than focusing on the talents I don't.
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Anyway, I don't mean you're crazy. You have lots of other incredible talents that the rest of us envy! (Like your singing voice, your super organization and efficiency, your gift with kids!)
I know organization and efficiency are weird talents to list but it's something I really lack and look up to you for having.
I take comfort in the fact that everyone has the time and abilities to do certain things at different times. When you're not working full time you'll have more time to devote to the creative things you value. But for now you can just sock cute ideas away for the future!